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'I'm either going to end up in jail or dead... or get my life together'
Troubled former All Blacks star Zac Guildford has admitted that he is going ‘to end up in jail or dead’ if he doesn’t get his life back together.
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In March the 33-year-old, who represented the All Blacks 10 times between 2009 and 2012, was sentenced to nine months of home detention for fraud charges. It was the latest in a long line of criminal incidents revolving around alcohol abuse and a burgeoning gambling addiction.
In an interview with Newshub in New Zealand as part of mental health week, Guildford estimates that his vices have cost him millions and admits he is currently ‘broke’.
Guildford is now six months sober and has also managed to kick his gambling addiction to touch for the time being, but has acknowledged that he sits in a precarious position.
“I’m either going to end up in jail where I don’t want to be, or dead, or I get my life together,’ he told NewsHub. “And I thought well, I don’t want to die yet, I don’t want to end up in jail, and this [being sober] is the only option left.”
“I am sober. The last time I touched alcohol was March 16, class A drugs a bit before that, so early March, and gambling I broke that off on April 17.
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Shockingly, Guildford was found guilty of defrauding his grandfather to the tune of NZD 40,000 and a friend by NZD 60,000. He was also been found guilty of assaulting people in a bar whilst naked on the Cook Islands in 2011 and of punching a woman in a cab in 2019.
He also crashed a motorbike in Thailand before running off in another drink and drug-fuelled rampage in 2019.
However, it’s gambling that has been the most ruinous of his many addictions.
“I didn’t want anyone to know I was a gambler, the brokest All Black of all time, so I hid that pretty well,” he said.
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The gambling led him to defraud family members and he admits conning his grandfather was a personal rock bottom. It led Guildford to attempt to take his own life.
“I knew that the court was coming up and I knew that the country was going to know every single demon that I had. That was too much for me to handle. I had had enough. I’d had a gut full. I couldn’t see any way out.”
He spent three nights in hospital as a result but soon returned to his addictions. He was then convicted of fraud in March of 2022 and sentenced to nine months home detention.
“As an addict and a gambler, my idea was to double the money [taken from his grandad] and keep a little for myself and pay him back some interest. It didn’t work. I was a pretty s*** gambler.
“It was tough. It was definitely one of the hardest moments of my life,’ he said following his arrest on the matter. ‘I didn’t know what to do, I let my granddad down.”
A tearful Guildford would eventually make amends with his grandfather.
“I couldn’t talk. I just crying on the phone for 15 minutes. I said I’d give you a call back when I’ve got my s*** together.
“It shows how powerful addiction is,’ said Guildford. ‘It takes no prisoners, it takes everything off you, strips your value, your worth, everything you were before and leaves you standing naked by yourself. It’s a pretty hard place to come back from.”
The former winger is hoping to stay sober but sees it as a huge challenge in New Zealand.
“This country is ruthless. It’s a tough place to get well.”
He will coach and play for Woodend Rugby Club just north of Christchurch – in 2023.
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124 Go to commentsThis is the single worst piece of journalism I have ever seen since your last one. As a neutral, who really states that there should be an asterisk next to a win? You are an utter embarrassment to real AB fans, journalism and that joke of a house which pays you for this nonsense. Get a life, Ben.
124 Go to commentsGuys. Cancel the World Cup champions after this analysis. It changes everything. Ben knows. We’ll have to unengrave the Bokke off the trophy and hand it to the ABs, now that I’ve been enlightened about this illegitimate win. This needs to be done. Now!
124 Go to commentsBen is right here though, Springboks were woefully poor with the advantage they had throughout this game. The France match was heroic because that was an even contest this match had it taken place in Rugby Championship would have been an easy win for NZ. If anything this match should tell the Bok coaches that a lot of this team should be changed. They beat this same NZ team by record margin with the same circumstances but with a different core. They bring back the tried and tested guys and they nearly botch this game.
124 Go to commentsI knew who wrote this article from the first few words in the headline…lol. The red card actually did the ABs a favour. It galvanized them, only then did they step up a gear. Before that there was zero momentum.
124 Go to commentsFirstly the foul on Bongi was a planned move just like the NZ master plan with Bryce Lawrence you kiwis are filthy fux perhaps try to play a cleaner game next time I doubt that’s possible tho but don’t worry world rugby is on yr side they trying to take away all the BOKS strengths to help all you weakling as Jeremy Clarkson would say LA OO ZA ERR..🤣
124 Go to commentsAbsolutely spot on Ben. I certainly wouldn't gloat over a win like that. Frustrating as it is it's done and dusted and history will forever show the result.
124 Go to commentsHo hum.
124 Go to commentsNo question they were the better team. But that is the beauty of sport isn’t it!
124 Go to commentsEveryone is into Hurling in Ireland according to Porter, but only 11 of Ireland's 32 counties enter a team into the national competition. Same old blarney.
1 Go to commentsLet’s be honest. The draw and scheduling in the World Cup was a joke but South Africa found a way after having to go the hard (nearly impossible) way to the Cup Final via France and England. NZ had a hard game against France (lost) and had 5 weeks to prepare for the Quarter, 3 weeks knowing it was Ireland. NZ theerfore had to win one big game against an Irish team who played SA and then Scotland 7 days before. They won and it was de facto a semi final because they were playing a relatively weak Argentina team and it was a walk over. In the final a very rested NZ team was playing a very tired SA team and still lost. They couldn’t score more than 11 points. Put another way SA had to find a way to win while tired and they achieved that. NZ should thank their lucky stars that they fixed the scheduling in 2015 otherwise they would be dealing with a Bok treble.
124 Go to commentsPerhaps if Bongi wasn’t targeted and removed from the game in the first 3 minutes it would have been quite a different game. Maybe if NZ also faced the same competition the Boks faced to their win NZ would have looked quite different. The final score shows who outplayed who.
124 Go to commentsRubbish article! Abuladze played most of Exeters matches when fit. He got injured against Glasgow a while ago and is out for the rest of the season, thats why he hasnt played for Exeter and Georgia recently. Do some proper research next time!
1 Go to commentsGotta love it when kids throw their toys out the pram and can’t hack it with the grown ups debate. Here’s looking at you turlough! 😉🤣
148 Go to commentsThey lost the game period move on
124 Go to commentsSpringboks won! Stop winging. You can change the game however much you and your rugby colonizing IRB want to and the Springboks will win you at that too. Your mind is colonized my friend get a life
124 Go to commentsBen, nobody gets fooled anymore by selective and biased data to support an hypothesis. Games are decided on such small margins these days that you win some and lose some, and dominance is a thing of the rugby past. Look at the RWC circle of fortune…. Ireland beats SA who beat France who beat NZ who beat Ireland. And so it goes on. Match officials help to eliminate real indiscretions. If they had been with us years before, no doubt results would have been different. Remember Andy Haden’s dive from a lineout in 1978 for which a match-wining penalty was awarded? Wales should have beaten the ABs that day. They took the loss like the gentlemen they were.
124 Go to commentsWith all the analysis and how good the all blacks were.The fundamental mistake with the ABs is that this is a test match and not an exhibition.There is no better team(country) in world rugby than the Boks that knows how to win a test match(we are post masters at this).We know our rules, we have the discipline, we tackle like beasts, we take our points and we never give up.I now have educated the ABs supporters(at least say thank you).Please stop “bitching” , accept what the outcome is and move along swiftly.
124 Go to commentsAnd they came from behind to win two big games before the final. No one can say what would have happened. Had the boks gone behind the game plan changes and the result may changes. Ifs and ands are irrelevant. The boks won. Neutral critics enjoyed the games they played. Its not a popularity contest. Get over it and move on.
124 Go to commentsI'm happy for the people of SA to get a second WC. And I mean that. I was very disappointed with this man's “stand on the hand” incident with Josh Van Der Flyer (Ireland). Ireland's downfall in the last WC was they did not rotate their first 15 as the head coach probably should have. That said, I'm happy for SA and genuinely hope it lifts the mood in their country. Ireland did beat them in the first match of the tournament. And before the trolls start trolling ….. please don't bother. Etzbeth said recently that the Irish players said after the match “see you in the final”…..this was actually wishing the SA team the best of luck in the rest, the Irish team were not dismissing the AB’s. This is what Etzbeth was implying. But he was wrong. I no longer live in Ireland. But I hope to see them lift that cup before I pass. Anyway, congratulations SA. 👍
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