'I won't make it back for the end of the season, I'm going to embrace the journey'
I went up to Manchester last week to have surgery on my thumb. You may be wondering why I went all the way to Manchester, but it was because I was seeing one of the top hand surgeons in the country. He’s actually the surgeon for one of the big orchestras – so he certainly knows what he’s doing when it comes to repairing hands and is seen as one of the best.
It gave me good peace of mind knowing I was being looked after by the best specialists in the country for my injury, which turned out to be Bennett’s fracture.
I was the first person to be seen on Wednesday morning and after just over an hour in surgery I came out with two wires in my thumb to piece it together. I’ll be in a cast for the next couple of weeks, at the moment it’s a hard cast for a week and a half which will then be changed to a splint to allow for some movement and physio.
You can imagine with the weather getting warmer the hard cast is getting a bit sweaty on the hot days – so it’ll be much nicer to have the splint when the time comes, not only for comfort but also for hygiene reasons!
While I’m looking forward to getting started on my rehab as soon as possible, it’s also important to realise that it is a broken bone, and it needs time to heal properly. England have been really supportive, so I’ll follow what I’ve been told by them and then return to Saracens. I have to be realistic and sensible with it, I won’t make the end of the season now so I’m just going to embrace the journey and keep getting fit; I can still run so that’s a good thing!
The hardest bit about it all was being pulled from the game, it was such an occasion and one that I had also missed out on the year before, so not being able to step onto the pitch to play in front of that massive crowd and all of my family who came to watch, I was absolutely gutted. I felt like I’d let everyone down. Since then, it’s been about coming to terms with it.
It was a freak accident that happened, and actually, I’m really fortunate that it is just one break and it can be fixed quite quickly; it’s not like I’m out for a particularly long time in the grand scheme of things. I’m embracing it now, it came at a good time in terms of being able to have some time off this week as have the rest of the squad after the tournament.
I’ve been able to escape from the rugby world for a week and go away on holiday and that’s been really good mentally. Once the rugby starts up again I think that’s when I’ll struggle with missing out on things.
I watched the Grand Slam in my living room at home and I must admit, I shed a tear during the anthem. You never want to miss out, be that through injury or selection decisions and it is always hard, but I knew that the girls would get the job done. I am so proud of them and I think they put in a really good performance.
It wasn’t always pretty, and we’ve spoken about how you have to win the game at three or four points against France to make sure you actually secure the win and they did that in the second half when France gave it a good go in spite of having that red card.
At the start it looked like we were in control, we had that first bit of dominance in the set piece and with our lineout maul, we got good metres in every one that we did. That was probably the difference at the start of the match was that England managed to stop the French maul so they didn’t get as much go forward.
Everything we’ve been working for has started to be pieced together and it was great to see that on the pitch. We spoke about short passing so watching Connie Powell give it to Alex Matthews for her try for example was really rewarding.
Spending so long in a competition environment starts to take its toll, and the second half of the final match was really about the survival of the fittest. The Red Roses were the ones who came out on top; if you look at the likes of Zoe Aldcroft, she literally puts her body on the line and gives it 110 per cent.
She looked absolutely exhausted but that’s what we’ll do to fight for each other. Our fitness is really important to us, we want to be the fittest team in the world, and we also want to make sure that fitness is mental toughness as well as physical fitness.
As Mitch [John Mitchell] has started to get to know us more throughout the tournament, he’s been great at picking up on cues for how we’re feeling mentally. There was one day where I walked in and I wasn’t smiling, and he said he could read me like a book and said I didn’t look myself, and in fact, I felt exhausted.
The coaches work really well together to get the best out of us, it’s not about running us into the ground for the final week, it was about keeping us ticking over and ready to give an optimum performance, which the girls definitely did in Bordeaux.
Achieving six Six Nations titles and three Grand Slams in a row is no mean feat; and with every victory, you can see a little snippet extra of what we’re getting better at. You always think each tournament win is your best one yet, but there’s always something to improve on and we always want to get better as individuals and as a team. We’re not happy being settled, we want to be comfortable in the uncomfortable and every week there was something different that we pushed towards and I think we got those results.
Personally, one of the learnings I’ve taken away from our first full competion with Mitch as head coach is that we have to trust the process. There’s reason and rationale for everything we do and the coaches and support staff have so many meetings to make sure we are the best in the world.
Trusting that process and backing yourself and your own ability is so important, it’s very easy to read into things like selection, but it doesn’t mean that you’re not valued, it just means that for that particular game, you might not be the right person for the job.
Because we are in one of the best setups in the world, we all know that we want to be there and if you’re not putting your all into it, there’s someone else that can come and take your shirt because of the incredible talent pool in the PWR. You can never take your place in the squad for granted, and that’s a huge motivation.
Speaking of the PWR, I couldn’t talk about last weekend without mentioning Saracens winning the Allianz Cup! I watched the final and it was really good to see the girls really bonding together, there were some tough times but you could see what they wanted to do and it’s that heart that they put on the pitch that carried them forward. You’ll put your body on the line for each other at Sarries and once you’re part of that family you know just how special it is.
To see Sonic [Sonia Green] off in style with some silverware was amazing, and the girls all had wigs like her hair and masks with her face on them when they were celebrating afterwards, so that must’ve been really special for her. She’s a massive part of the team, she basically is the face of a Saracen, so giving her the send-off she deserved was great to see.
I’m really looking forward to getting back to the club on Monday after the decompression week. For me, I’ll probably take a bit of a different role. I’ve been doing my level three coaching so I’m going to try and put that into action and help out with the forwards coaching side of things. I’m excited to challenge myself in a slightly different way with that while also working on my rehab.
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This has the makings of a good match. That’s Leinster’s second team but its a good one (stronger than the teams in SA recently). Ulster are really turning a page. Ryan back is huge, and Keenan too. This could be a cracker.
1 Go to commentsThe Farrells are one of the great father and son combinations. Andy was an RL great, and had he played Union as his first sport, I would be sure he would have been avery significant forcewas in League. And Owen, a Union great, who had he played League, would could have been a great there too i all probability. I feel my attitude to Owen has mellowed as he has aged, and in the post Jones era, evolved and shown his full range of talents. He really is an all round player, and I have wold hope his move to France will be successful. He may even be the piece in the jigsaw that Racing need to rise to challenge Toulouse and LAR. He is ofc now approaching 33 years of age but should still have enough left to make a big contribution in France for at least2/3 years.
45 Go to commentsI reckon it may be Jordan at 10 and Nohamba at 9, both players have played together alot and both have been on the Radar for a long time. After Pollard got injured in 2022 with Elton sidelined on a path of self destruction Erasmus and Nienaber indicated that the other options in the country at the time were thin but that Jordan and Manie were the 2 they were looking at. In the end Frans steyn played flyhalf, Willemse slotted in there on the end of year with Libbok as back up. Jordan was right there in the thinking back then so expect him to take the Jersey either as the starter.
1 Go to commentsHaha did he also* say it in a sarcastic teacher sort of manor or was it the petulant English snob sort of wail?
45 Go to commentsWell said Mils. It is a big boost at last having Fergus Burke back at 10 for the Crusaders. Had a great season last year as the article says. Mils is also right about captain Codie Taylor’s performance in his return to the Crusaders last week. He was all class.
4 Go to commentsLet’s make them both Capt. I think we'd get the best of both of them and it would help alleviate some of the pressures of the role. They'd have to confer over on field decisions which should lead to “ learnings “ for both. They are our two best consistent performers.
16 Go to commentsOur best player by far..but not a good Captain..poor tactician cost the AB'S and Canes games by not taking the easy points and going for tries when the lineouts were a shambles..can he read a game? And his throat slitting gesture should disqualify him from the AB Captaincy..it is not the appropriate behaviour of an AB Captain.
16 Go to commentsForget what was said or how many players said it. TONY BROWN IS THE NEW ATTACK COACH. That’s the only story worth freaking out over. The springboks are going to grow their game an awful lot over the next cycle and it’s not just the 19 disgustingly arrogant Irish players who refused to shake Ebens hand and said “see you in the final if you can cheat your way past France” who will find that out first hand.
124 Go to commentsOn one hand I think it's a bit ridiculous that this gar into the season and with only 2 wins the Crusaders may make the finals. On the other hand if it was only top 4 or 5, then that last several weeks may be mainly dead rubbers. Nope, 8th place after round robin shouldn't be able to lift the trophy.
4 Go to commentsI do think the media in NZ treated him badly. Sam is a legend. He is humble, a great rugby mind and leader. What happened in the final could happen to anyone. The margins is so fine these days. I lay blame at the feet of the coaching staff and NZ rugby. The stats tell’s all. The AB’s was the worst disciplined side in the WC with more red and yellow cards than anyone else. Problem is NZ rugby is not training their players to play safer. And thats the danger a fast game brings. More yellow and red cards. But Sam Cane in my eye was and still is a great ambassador for the game, that just had a stroke of bad luck.
6 Go to commentsI hope Jim and co. Add this to their list of icebreaker questions they can ask all their guests going forward. So we can eventually hear what everyone thinks about this subject. “What do you think Ireland meant…”
124 Go to commentsHe’s a dominant personality. That might be both a good and bad thing in team dynamics. Certainly it ruined Smith’s first crack at 10 with Owen at 12. BTW, Bristol flatter to deceive. When things really matter, they tend to deliver less rather than more. Farrell would have been good for them
45 Go to commentsGot a lot of over the top abuse from Crusader fans, in particular, who thought every 7 they had was miles better. Now we will see if anyone is better? Laid his body on the line every game so finishing early makes sense. A lot of life left after rugby.
6 Go to commentsA poor decision to appoint Carley as not only is Pearce a better referee but also importantly speaks French.
2 Go to commentsHe is 100 % on the mark. Malicious arrogance with a lack of respect for the other teams mostly the south. they must learn from True rugby nations like the Boks and Kiwis
124 Go to commentsThis Outiniqua boy has played sublime rugby and deserves a spot in BI LIONS team. Well played son
4 Go to commentsI don’t like to see players miss big matches but this ban looks to be tailored to allow him to compete in the final. In principle a suspension for a very dangerous tackle in a semi should warrant missing the relevant final. Done now. One the flip side having both teams with very strong squads/teams available for the final will add to the occassion hopefully.
1 Go to commentsTalent to burn and a huge engine..hope he gets a shot at higher honours
2 Go to commentsIf anything like his dad he has a bright future, Soane was the best ball carrying props ive ever seen using a combination of pace power and footwork.
1 Go to commentsThose who saw Sharks vs Clermont and Ox N'Che vs Rabah Slimani should have a good idea of the best scrumagers… May be not the best props…
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