Ali Williams: What it's like to lose as an All Black
In his exclusive RugbyPass column, 77-Test former All Blacks lock Ali Williams sheds light into how the team deals with a loss following their 16-9 defeat at the hands of Ireland.
Every time you step on the field as an All Black, you’re representing your country. You’re representing yourself. You’re representing your friends and your family. You’re also representing New Zealand’s economy.
If you lose – I’ve heard a stat – that New Zealand’s GDP drops by something like 20 percent over the coming days.
We don’t like losing. We don’t want to lose, we want to win and win well. But when we do lose, the pressure is one that we put mostly on ourselves – which is then backed up by an entire nation. We’re four and a half million people, we’re all engaged and it’s our national game.
When you lose as a player you bear that responsibility. Myself and a lot of other All Blacks – past and present – think that pressure is a privilege given to those that want to accept it. That’s why those guys are wearing the black jersey – because they want that pressure on their shoulders and they flourish under that set of circumstances.
Losing as an All Black does have a knock-on effect off the park. You can be walking down the street and someone will come up and say ‘hey mate, can we talk about that lineout in the 36th minute’ and you’re thinking geez, I can’t even remember walking down here. Everyone is so knowledgeable and passionate about our game and I think it’s the knowledge that takes them outside the realm of supporter and into the position of the critic.
The week after is the hard part because people are constantly pointing out areas or facets of the game where we were horrific or failed to deliver.
With fan reaction in general, there isn’t much of a middle ground. I remember I was playing rugby with some young kids, one of them came up to me and said ‘you’re Ali Williams, right? My dad thinks you suck’. I said ‘that’s great mate, where’s your dad?’. The kid turned around and pointed to his dad, I gave him and a wave and the young fella then said ‘don’t worry, he thinks Sione Lauaki’s even worse.’
I personally think it’s a great thing that everyone’s got their view. The flipside of that is the older crowd or the younger kids that have in their mind that you are the All Blacks and you are what they love, cherish and aspire to be. One blip isn’t going to hold you back.
In terms of dealing with a loss as a team, the general focus will be to look at yourself. It starts not by how you played the game, but how your week before played out. Did you prepare well, were you conditioned, did you do your extras, did you know your opposition, was the gameplan right?
Everyone does that individually. The coaches have their view on it and then the players have their view on it. The senior group would then come together to understand how the working week was as a collective, and then we dilute and go through the game and analyse the areas we could have been better.
Like any good problem, you find a solution at the end.
You can imagine that’s on a Monday or Tuesday – working on your solutions – so Saturday night and Sunday can contain a bit of soul searching and brutal honesty. We talk about something called bone-deep and skin-deep. If it’s going into your bones then you’re doing it properly, if it’s going into your skin then people can perceive that you’re doing it correctly, but only you know if you’re doing enough or not.
The obvious big loss in my career came in 2007. The worst ever result for an All Blacks team at a World Cup, knocked out by France in the quarterfinal. I got a text message from a mate saying ‘congrats mate, you’ve just increased household violence’ so people see the actual physical impact it has on the country and then the individual impact it has on you personally.
To be honest with you, we felt it more than anyone else. We had to constantly remind ourselves to walk around with our heads held high. One of the special things about that time was the reception we got when we got home. Everyone understood what had happened. We can look and blame other things but at the end of the day, it was us as a squad that didn’t deliver. They beat us. I think it’s a critical moment in All Blacks history. It turned us and changed our mindset from where we were to where they are now. It constantly drives people.
Losses like that shape a nation and a sporting team’s legacy that they create afterward. You go one of two ways, you go underneath or you rise above it. We can clearly see now that the guys are going above it.
Sure, the loss in 2007 created doubt but in response we selected the same coaches so we didn’t make the same mistakes. We all looked at ourselves individually and those that wanted to commit committed. Those that didn’t walked out. That’s still one of the beauties of that team. If you want to be there there’s every opportunity you can be, but if you don’t want to be there we’re not going to make you. We’ll find someone else that wants to be because that’s more important.
In my mind, both in rugby and in life, losses can be a great help. Those that come back from adversity stronger and better are the ones that accept things that are challenging. A fear of failure is not a bad thing. A fear of failure is a great thing, and you learn from it. Failure is pretty powerful if you look at it in the right way. If you don’t, it can be soul destroying.
I would say that the best thing about a loss is this: it can tell you exactly where you are. You can say whatever you want, but at the end of the day you lost. How you respond is what defines you. Do we come together or do we go the other way? I think with the All Blacks, the strength of that team is that after the Saturday night and beers in the changing room, you say right, we’re coming together. You have to. There’s no other option.
You’ve got to grieve and accept a loss because if you don’t it loses meaning. After that, it turns quickly to how we get better and what more do we need to do.
I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and I think at the end of the day, losing in 2007 was ultimately for a good reason, even though someone asks about it every other interview you do.
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Like others, I am not seeing the connection between this edition of the Crusaders and the All Blacks future prospects under Razor. I think the analysis of the Crusaders attack recently is helpful because Razor and his coaching team used to be able to slot new guys in to their systems and see them succeed. Several of Razor’s coaches are still there so it would be surprising if the current attack and set piece has been overhauled to a great extent - but based on that analysis, it may have been. Whether it is too many new guys due to injuries or retirement or a failure of current Crusaders systems is the main question to be answered imo. It doesn’t seem relevant for the ABs.
3 Go to commentsharry potter is set in stone. he creates stability and finishes well. exactly what schmidt likes. he’s the ben smith of australian rugby. i think it could quite easily be potter toole and kellaway for the foreseeable future.
5 Go to commentsThis is short sighted from Clayton if you ask me, smacks of too much preseason planning and no adaptability. What if DMac is out for a must win match, are they still only going to bring their best first five and playmaker on late in the game? Trusting the game to someone who wasn’t even part of planning (they would have had Trask pinned in as Jacomb preseason). Perhaps if the Crusaders were better they would not have done this, but either way imo you take this opportunity to play a guy you might need starting in a final rather than having their 12th game getting comfortable coming off the bench.
1 Go to commentsThanks Brett.. At last a positive article on the potential of Wallaby candidates, great to read. Schmidt’s record as an international rugby coach speaks for itself, I’m somewhat confident he will turn the Wallaby’s fortunes around …. on the field. It will be up to others to steady the ship off the paddock. But is there a flaw in my optimism? We have known all along that Australia has the players to be very competitive with their international rivals. We know that because everyone keeps telling us. So why the poor results? A question that requires a definitive answer before the turn around can occur. Joe Schmidt signed on for 2 years, time to encompass the Lions tour of 2025. By all accounts he puts family first and that’s fair enough, but I would wager that his 2 year contract will be extended if the next 18 months or so shows the statement “Australia has the players” proves to be correct. The new coach does not have a lot of time to meld together an outfit that will be competitive in the Rugby Championship - it will be interesting to see what happens. It will be interesting to see what happens with Giteau law, the new Wallaby coach has already verbalised that he would to prefer to select from those who play their rugby in Australia. His first test in charge is in July just over 3 months away .. not a long time. I for one wish him well .. heaven knows Australia needs some positive vibes.
21 Go to commentsWhat a load of bollocks. The author has forgotten to mention the fact that the Crusaders have a huge injury toll with top world class players out. Not to mention the fact that they are obviously in a transition period. No this will not spark a slow death for NZ rugby, but it does mean there will be a new Super Rugby champion. Anyone who knows anything about NZ rugby knows that there is some serious talent here, it just isn’t all at the Crusaders.
3 Go to commentsI wouldn’t spend the time on Nawaqanitawase! No point in having him filling in a jersey when he’s committed to leave Union. Give the jersey to a young prospect who will be here in the future.
5 Go to commentsIt was a pleasure to watch those guys playing with such confidence. That trio can all be infuriating for different reasons and I can see why Jones might have decided against them. No way to justify leaving Ikitau out though. Jorgensen and him were both scheduled to return at the same time. Only one of them plays for Randwick and has a dad who is great mates with the national coach though.
53 Go to commentsBrayden Iose and Peter Lakai are very exciting Super Rugby players but are too short and too light to ever be a Test 8 vs South Africa, France, Ireland, and England, Lakai could potentially be a Test player at 7 if he is allowed to focus on 7 for Hurricanes.
7 Go to commentsPencils “Thomas du Toit” into possible 2027 Bok squad.
1 Go to commentsDon’t see why Harrison makes the bench. Jones can play at 10 if needed, and there is a good case for starting her there to begin with if testing combinations. That would leave room for Sing on the bench
1 Go to commentsWhat a load of old bull!
1 Go to commentsOf the rugby I’ve born witness to in my lifetime - 1990 to date - I recognize great players throughout those years. But I have no doubt the game and the players are on average better today. So I doubt going back further is going to prove me wrong. The technical components of the game, set pieces, scrums, kicks, kicks at goal. And in general tactics employed are far more efficient, accurate and polished. Professional athletes that have invested countless hours on being accurate. There is one nation though that may be fairly competitive in any era - and that for me is the all blacks. And New Zealand players in general. NZ produces startling athletes who have fantastic ball skills. And then the odd phenomenon like Brooke. Lomu. Mcaw. Carter. Better than comparing players and teams across eras - I’ve often had this thought - that it would be very interesting to have a version of the game that is closer to its original form. What would the game look like today if the rules were rolled back. Not rules that promote safety obviously - but rules like: - a try being worth 1 point and conversion 2 points. Hence the term “try”. Earning a try at goals. Would we see more attacking play? - no lifting in the lineouts. - rucks and break down laws in general. They looked like wrestling matches in bygone eras. I wonder what a game applying 1995 rules would look like with modern players. It may be a daft exercise, but it would make for an interesting spectacle celebrating “purer” forms of the game that roll back the rules dramatically by a few versions. Would we come to learn that some of the rules/combinations of the rules we see today have actually made the game less attractive? I’d love to see an exhibition match like that.
29 Go to commentsIrish Rugby CEO be texting Andy Farrell “Andy, i found our next Kiwi Irishman”
5 Go to commentsI certainly don’t miss drinking beers at 8am in the morning watching rugby games being played in NZ.
1 Go to commentsThis looks like a damage limitation exercise for Wales, keeping back some of their more effective players for the last 20/25 minutes to try and counter England’s fresh legs so the Red Roses don’t rack up a big score.
1 Go to commentsVery unlikely the Bulls will beat Leinster in Dublin. It would be different in Pretoria.
1 Go to commentsI think it is a dangerous path to go down to ban a player for the same period that a player they injured takes to recover. Players would be afraid to tackle anyone. I once tackled my best friend at school in a practice match and sprained his ankle. I paid for it by having to play fly-half instead of full-back for the rest of that season’s fixtures.
5 Go to commentsJust such a genuine good bloke…and probably the best all round player in his generation. Good guys do come first sometimes and he handled the W.Cup loss with great attitude.
2 Go to commentsWord in France is that he’s on the radar of a few Top14 clubs.
5 Go to commentsGet blocking Travis, this guy has styles and he’s gonna make a swift impact…!
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